The Daily Dose.

Why does it always surprise me when I feel like life is hard?  
It's seriously like I'm shocked by it or something.  
Why is that?  
My answer to that question (now that the day is practically over) is that it's God's constant reminder to me that I can't do things on my own.  Honestly, depending on God for the long term things are easier for me to do then then the day-to-day things. 

Why is that?  

Again... I don't know.

However, I am so broken by God at a time like this. 
Right now.
Just sitting on my bed pondering what the day was like and how much I need to do... and I begin to put all of these pressures onto myself and then I realize that I DO NOT need to that.
God is been through it all!  How long will it take me to realize that God is ABLE.  
HE IS ABLE
HE IS ABLE
HE IS ABLE
HE IS ABLE
When will I stop depending on myself to finish my to-do list?
Im so disappointed at myself because I know that it's wrong for me to give everything to God. But I do it without even thinking and that's what frightens me.
I NEED TO TRUST IN GOD not just for the big things in life, but the little ones as well.
Proverbs 3:5 is so clear. 

"Trust in the Lord with all your HEART, and lean not on your understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

My desire is to serve the Lord and to be fruitful so that in all ways I can be glorifying to Christ. My duty here on Earth is to bring Him all the glory that I possibly can and today I failed so miserably. Today was such a humbling and Im so thankful for the holy spirt in that He instilled in me the conviction that I was not trusting in the Lord today. 
 "Be anxious over nothing"

Tomorrow I get the opportunity to try this again.  

My focus for tomorrow is

 2 Peter 1:5 

"Make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self control, and self control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love."

Until next time,

I'll be constantly seeking and striving for HIM.

Colossians 3:2

My Utmost for HIS Highest.

2 Corinthians 4:1-2 -- 

"THEREfore, having this ministry by the mercy of God, we do not lose heart.  But we have RENOUNCED THE HIDDEN THINGS OF DISHONESTY."  

As I stop and think about my thoughts, there are so many things that are hidden from the light in my heart.  Bad thoughts about people that I never say out loud are hidden things of dishonesty.  
Things like envy, strife, and jealousy all arise in my mind and they are sinful thoughts.  


Romans 6:19 reassures us of our sinful nature: 

"I am speaking in human terms, because of your natural limitations.  For just as you once presented your members as slaves to impurity and lawlessness leading to more lawlessness, so now present your members as slaves to righteousness leading to sanctification."  

This is so reassuring!  We sin because because its our nature. However, we can do things to control our thoughts and to set ourselves apart from those that are still slaves to sin. 

1 Peter 4:2 tells us that 

"Since Christ suffered in the flesh, arm yourselves with the same way of thinking, for whoever has suffered in the flesh has ceased from sin, so as to live for the rest of the time in the flesh no longer for human passions but for the WILL OF GOD.   

It is so reassuring to me to know that God has rescued us from that bondage that we once had to sin!  No longer am I bound to that, now I'm bound to God and that means I must live that out!
In a world that is filled with the most that one could imagine, we must

Maintain a continual watchfulness so that nothing of which you would be ashamed of arises in your life.

I am:

Gods child.

That is my identity and my goal in life is to live that out to the fullest.

my UPMOST for HIS  highest.

Thats what we should strive for. Living to serve the God who gave up everything for some lowly humans that give him nothing in return.

Serve. Love. Devote.