He gives me peace.
He gives me love.
He gives me hope.
He gives me a future.
He gives me joy.
He gives me grace.
He is steadfast.
He is all knowing.
HE IS LOVE.
My soul awaits in Him and I rest in the shadow of His wings.
I've become comfortable knowing that everything in life with regards to that certain someone out there can be so confusing that when Im at the point of tears and I just want to scream out of frustration and confusion... that I can find my quiet place and pray to God and find comfort. His word is kept close at all times for that is what I find comfort in. Its challenging, but I know that if God takes everything away, that I will just as I am for I have Christ and that is everything. That's all I need. Now do I love my friends and the people around and away from me?
Absolutely.
But that is not what I find my identity in.
Christ is THE One.
The ONLY One.
Honestly these past couple weeks I just desire to be with Christ so that I can worship him at my home.
My eternal home.
That is what I long for ultimately.
To kneel at the feet of God and to worship Him is what I long for.
May my prayer like incense rise before you.
The lifting of my hand a sacrifice
Oh Lord Jesus turn your eyes upon me
For I know there is mercy in your sight.
Your statutes are my heritage forever.
My heart is set on keeping your decrees.
Please still my anxious urge toward rebellion.
Let love keep my veil upon its knees.
Oh God you are my God.
And I will ever Praise you.
Oh God you are my God.
And I will ever praise you.
Now in all of this, in my satisfaction in Christ and me being at peace with the confusing things going on in my life, God gives me someone whom I don't deserve and that makes no sense to me.
I mean I'm satisfied in Christ...
What more could I ask for?
Ever asked the why God question when really-really good things happen?
I've been asking that question for the last 20 hours.
Why God do I deserve this?
How do I deserve this?
Why when you can make me empty in the flesh but satisfied in the depths of my soul would you still give something that I don't necessarily need?
Let me say this, God is awesome and his blessings are truly abundant.
I feel so extraordinarily blessed at this moment and I have no words to say except for thank you Jesus.
I thank Him for sending His Son.
I thank Him for taking me back when I stab Him in the back.
I thank Him for giving me someone that has surpassed anything that I ever imagined. I have dreamed for the longest time that someone make me feel like I was on top of the World, and this person has. This guy loves me, and he really wants to be with me. He poured his heart out to me and I was just speechless. I didn't know what to say. I still don't know what to say except for 'How great is our God' to give me someone that 'woos' me.
Christ does things that don't make sense in the moment that they take place. I don't understand why Christ has allowed someone to feel this way about me. Like I just can't help but think how can he even see through all my sin these awful things that I am.
But no... he sees what God sees in me and its not the fleshly aspects. He sees Christ in me and that's the biggest compliment I could ever recieve.
Today I woke up asking God why me and why right now?
and I will go to bed asking the same question, but also praising God for this blessing and this gift that he has given me.
God's timing is incredible.
Trust in Christ and in his mysterious acts.
We will never understand the mind of the Lord and He is full or surprises as well.
While I feel like the luckiest girl in the entire world, let me just say that I am so happy. I am so happy. And to see that a conclusion has finally been reached and that the confusion has come to an end, I am relieved, and
I will continue to rest in the shadow of his wings.
God is almighty.
The petals have fallen. Well all except for one, as God plucks it off the flower, he shows me and I can't help but smile...
God always knows the desires of my heart.
Seek God. Love Others.
