shine on until tomorrow.

I'll start off by being completely honest... I have never, ever blogged before and I really don't even know why I have started one except for the fact that my friend and I wanted to start writing things down, accept that writings take forever.  
so why not blog right?  
I created this for the purpose of just purely writing down my thoughts and with no intentions that anyone is going to read this except for maybe one person, you know who you are. :) But with blogging sites, it's inevitable that other people will maybe read a post or two occasionally.
So... i don't even know how to start these things off except with certain rules that Im going to follow with this blog. first of all, Im never saying my name because... well I don't know it just doesn't seem like a good idea I guess.  and that's really the only rule I can think of but if I think of more I'll add them.


To start off with, or to continue with I should say:  Im a Christian and Im living my life to serve and to glorify Him. My responsibility is to be like Him and even though I sin ALL THE TIME, my goal is to be more Christ-like every day.  
Also, I love my life!  I don't know why God blessed me with the best people in the entire world, but I am truly surrounded by the nicest people, the bestest of friends, and seriously the best and weirdest family! God has mercy lets just say.  He truly what he was doing when he placed me with such a great life surrounded by the greatest people. I thank God constantly for His love for me and all the people that he has placed in my life.
I will cherish them always.
Today is Sunday so being a Christian at a Christian college, I went to church. ha okay that was funny. 
anyways... today the message was on why the death of Christ demands attention.  Let me tell you, (whoever is reading this) that this message really hit me hard.  I was basically feeling so convicted and guilty the entire time. Somewhere in the midst of my busy schedule, friends, family, and basically just living, I have lost my 'fire' for God and my desire for him has been dwindling.  I feel as though I am hanging on by a thread and I can't help but doubt from time to time whether or not I am truly one of Gods chosen people and am truly saved.  I try and remind myself that Satan is getting into my head putting those doubts there but sometimes its hard to distinguish what's in my head and what's really God saying to me. I need to put my relationship with Him back to where it belongs, center stage.
Isaiah 53:6 says 'All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned-every one-to his own way; and the Lord has laid down on him the iniquity of us all'
This verse is a reminder to me today that by me going astray and by falling away from the desire to be 'near God' is me being totally human.  Im not saying that it makes it okay, because it's completely unacceptable. I'm just a little relieved that 'going astray' is totally in the bible.  Verse 7 goes on to say that 'He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth; like a lamb that is led to the slaughter, and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent, so he opened not his mouth'.  I cringe with the thought that I did this to God. The only Living Christ died for me. the mind blowing fact is that He did it willingly.  No one made him. He did it willingly. Need I repeat that? I think not.  
I am striving to bring God back to the center stage of my life and to make Him my first priority. 
Ill leave you with one of my favorite verses... 
Psalm 26:9-10 'Do not sweep away my soul with sinners, nor my life with bloodthirsty men, in whose hands are evil devices, and whose right hands are evil devices, and whose right hands are full of bribes'
I will shine on until tomorrow with the light from Him.




stay classy.